I was being tempted to waste my time, and the temptation was strong. Considering the position I found myself in, I gave up. Temptation being that strong, I just decided right then and there I wasn’t going to fight it. I know it sounds convoluted, but I found I could muster up enough strength to do my devotions first and I had sorta decided I’d waste my time doing purposeless things later.
In my devotions God spoke to me. I found new strength and will to fight my selfish desires, and I did not waste my time afterwards.
That day I learned a lot about myself. You see, I didn’t have the strength to make the decision to fight the temptation head on, but I knew where to find it. God strengthened me, and I escaped. But my whole attitude was off.
I had convinced myself that I was helpless against temptation once it became strong to a certain extent. It’s almost as if I had courage against little trials, but I couldn’t imagine putting in the effort to overcome big ones.
It reminds me of a verse in Hebrews 12, it says,
“Ye have not yet resisted unto blood, striving against sin.”
Think about that.
The word “resisted” there, means to line up for battle.
Imagine coming back from a fight, a battle, a war- without a scratch. Usually, if a person doesn’t have a scratch on them, they weren’t involved. Essentially, the writer of Hebrews is saying,
“You didn’t get in the trenches”
“You didn’t fight”
“You haven’t begun to fight”
I think that applies to many of us. A lot of times we sin because it’s convenient, or because we feel like it. The addiction is too strong, we say.
I would suggest to you, that we aren’t feeling the pain that our sin causes.
We’d rather live comfortably, than live purely.
Our sin is tolerable to us, our discomfort is not.
This is the crux of the issue.
I challenge you to follow after God. Make Him the ultimate need in your life. Don’t live comfortably with sin.
Resist. Unto blood.